This quote pretty much sums up my week, I have felt torn in so many different directions this week. I have tried to be there for my daughter and son-in-law and help them with my grand baby while they have taught swim lessons. I have been in the middle of helping my extended family with my brother and his illness and trying to be there for his wife and kids. I have found myself trying to be there for my mom this week and doing what I can for her challenges. While all the time still trying to be a wife and mother and still enduring my own health issues.
Before having this disease I would have tried to do all of what I explained above alone. Thinking that I am tough enough or strong enough to be there and do it all for everyone at anytime! BOY having this disease has seriously shown me that I no longer can do any of that. I have learned that I can't go one single day without relying on my Heavenly Father to get me through all of lives challenges.
Having this illness I have found I have to safeguard myself and only do what I can do or I will be one needing the help right along with them. Although I am still in the process of learning it myself, I find it works better when I monitor my health and not allow myself to get too stressed or do too much. I have to take care of myself first in order to be of help to to others as I trust in God to help me stay positive and make it through whatever comes my way.
Tonight as Shaniah and I sat in the airplane on the way to her lacrosse tournament in Colorado I was reminded of just how important it is to take care of yourself first. As the stewardess was going over all of the safety precautions before the flight. She took out the oxygen mask and put it on herself first and explained just how important it was to place the mask on yourself first before trying to help others. This reminded me just how important it was to make sure I took care of myself before trying to be there for others. Sometimes in life we can get so caught up in the to-do's and trying to care for others that we might forget ourselves in the process. We still can do for others but not at the expense of our own health.
As the plane took off I marveled at this world and felt so small. The clouds and sky were so vast and I felt such gratitude for everything that my Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ created for us to live in. I could only imagine that although I was so small I was still known and loved individually by each of Them.
As we were flying through a great deal of turbulence it was a bit stressful. You could feel the tension from others on the plane due to the complete silence. I thought of how we all were placing our trust in the pilots and hoping they could fly us safely to our destination. My thoughts went back to another parallel from this plane ride. Our Father in Heaven is our pilot and we have to trust him daily in order to navigate safely back to our destination. Without him we would stress, worry, and never enjoy life if we were constantly worrying about what is in store for us. As we trust in our Father in Heaven we can find peace, happiness, and joy through every trial, struggle or obstacle that comes are way.
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