I made baked eggs, bacon, and homemade pink heart shape pancakes. I was super proud of myself as I felt I was able to do something that I used to do. After my hubby and kids were off to work and school, I began to clean up the mess. By 9:00 am I was struggling to get my air and was completely physically exhausted. I was so frustrated with myself for using all of my energy or spoons (see last Sunday's post to understand what I mean by spoons) by doing this one simple task. I fell into bed and passed out from exhaustion. I did not even feel like I could muster the strength to go to my two Drs. appointments today, but I knew I needed to go no mater how exhausted I was.
I drug myself out of bed and felt my headache beginning along with pain and pressure in my lungs. My daughter drove me to my appointments today and as we were on our way home my headache continued to get worse and my energy was depleted. The baby was asleep so I told my daughter to drop me off at home and I would watch the baby sleep while she ran a quick errand. The baby woke up right after she left and was very fussy due to teething pain. I tried my best to console her but nothing seemed to work unless I was up walking and bouncing her. Although this was difficult for me physically I really enjoyed loving and spending time with her no matter how I felt.
I tried to conserve what little energy I had for Valentines night, but my 6:00 that night my head was on fire and I was so nauseated from the pain. My family told me to call my Dr. and ask what I should do. My Dr. suggested I come to her house right away. Once I got there she told me my neck was completely locked up. She felt swollen lymph nodes and arthritis in my neck. She was able to adjust the neck and told me to go home and rest.
On the way home my pain continued to increase and my nausea was worsening. My sweet hubby picked up our Valentines dinner on the way home. I was unable to eat it because once we got home I began throwing up.
My sweet daughters were by my side in my bed, massaging my head, doing pressure points, holding the bowl and my hair back when I needed to throw up. My hubby gave me a comfort blessing and then when my son-in-law arrived the gave me a blessing for the sick. I felt such relief and comfort after the blessing. It took about 20 minutes after the blessing and by 11:30 I was finally able to go to sleep.
The best part of that night was when my daughters were on both sides of me in my bed and Shaniah said, "Boy this is the best Valentines ever!" We all laughed as they were both trying to eat their Valentines meal while I was puking in the bowl. I will never forget their love that they showed to me by not leaving my side in my most difficult time.
Tonight I realized that sometimes you just have to laugh during difficult times so that you don't cry!
Today I found gratitude for
1. Strong, loving, & caring daughters who never left my side in my most difficult times.
2. Priesthood blessings.
3. Husband who was patient and caring and who would do anything to get me out of pain.
4. Laughter that helped me not to cry today.
5 My SPECIAL LITTLE VALENTINE! Ireland who showed me so much Landee Love today!
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