BE RICH…..

My sweetheart has been off work for the past three days. Each day he continues, without complaint to take me to my doctors appointments. It takes the majority of the day due to travel and wait times in between appointments. I do not know how I could do this without him.

I really want to drive myself to these appointments but my family will not let me until I get stronger my health improves. THey will allow me to drive small distances like within 3-5 minutes away but not long distances yet. Somedays I feel such a burden on my family but then they remind me just how much they love me and that they are just paying me back for the many years I have taken care of them.

I think one of the hardest thing for me was to come to the realization that you can't take care of everyone like you used to. I am now seeing first hand how to accept help and not be the one helping. It has also been challenging for my family to have to step into a new role of caregiver and caretaker. I know it is so draining on them and I really try to not make things any more difficult than they need to be.

My personality was a do-it-all, 24-7 type person. I loved doing everything for everyone. Serving others made me happy and was simple and fun for me. Not being able to do this has really been a struggle. Watching my family learn to take over what I used to do has been hard for me to let go. But by allowing them to do this I have seen them soften, grow, and gain blessings that they might not have had if I had continued to do it. My life has been so richly blessed by having them by my side through it all.

Today before the kids left for school, the challenge was to "BE RICH".  My hubby came up with this one for todays family challenge. He did not explain what it meant to the kids but only said, it does not mean to "BE RICH" in monetary terms. But instead he told them to think about what makes them rich.

As I have thought about that today I have found gratitude in being rich in the following ways;
1. I am richly blessed with love and support from an amazing family
2. I am rich because I can read and learn from the scriptures and pray to my Father in Heaven anytime.
3. I am richly blessed with the ability to inspire others as I endure this trial
4. I am rich in terms of my bodies ability to walk, think, and learn.
5. I am rich because I have the Savior who continually strengthens me through this trial and who carries   me in my most difficult days.