Finish & Not Falter

While struggling through the pain of this disease today I found comfort and relief in a quote from President Thomas S Monson, ( October 2013) conference address. This is what I really needed to inspire me to be patient in this process and ask myself: "Will I finish or will I falter"?

"When the pathway of life takes a cruel turn, there is the temptation to ask the question “Why me?” At times there appears to be no light at the end of the tunnel, no sunrise to end the night’s darkness. We feel encompassed by the disappointment of shattered dreams and the despair of vanished hopes. We join in uttering the biblical plea, “Is there no balm in Gilead?” We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. We are inclined to view our own personal misfortunes through the distorted prism of pessimism. We become impatient for a solution to our problems, forgetting that frequently the heavenly virtue of patience is required."

After reading this I have to admit that these past few days I have felt a great deal of what President Monson is speaking about in this passage above. I found myself being impatient while struggling with pain. I found myself being disappointed at not being able to do what I wanted and needed to do. I found myself becoming not as optimistic as I would have liked to be. I felt as if there were no light up ahead for me.

It is in these most trying moments that I must remember to finish and not falter. I know that I am being tested to my very core. I know many others suffer and struggle with much more than I am going through. I know that I must reach deep inside myself to find the strength I need to lift not only myself but also others.

President Monson continues;

"The difficulties which come to us present us with the real test of our ability to endure. A fundamental question remains to be answered by each of us: Shall I falter, or shall I finish? Some do falter as they find themselves unable to rise above their challenges. To finish involves enduring to the very end of life itself."

After reading this I found such strength and courage to go on! I found inspired and felt the challenge to rise above it and not falter. I will not let this disease get the best of me I will not allow it to take me down. I will FINISH and NOT falter! I am so thankful for words from such an amazing Prophet of God who inspired and help me get through such a difficult day.