Always By My Side

I am still trying to recover from this past weekends events. They really caused a huge flare up for me. Sarcoidosis can be a very difficult disease to try and get a handle on. I try my best each day trying to not bring on another flare. I know that the weather, what I eat, what I do, and the stress that I encounter all play a huge part in causing flare-ups.

Somedays it can be a bit overwhelming when enduring these flares. Not knowing when my body will flare and how long they will last can be very frustrating. It really helps me to have so many wonderful people in my life so that I am able to focus on them and not the pain I am going through.

 I know everyone deals with some sort of pain, whether emotional, physical, mental, financial, marital, or any other type of pain. I know I have been given this lot in my life and it is up to me to make the best of each and every day. I know I have loved ones here on earth as well as my loved ones who have passed on (my guardian angels) who are constantly here for me. I am so thankful for a family who are continuing to educate themselves and find ways to help me each and every day overcome this battle.

On days when I feel hopeless, and believe me, I do have these days. I find myself wondering what my future holds for me. I wonder...Will I  have pain for the rest of my life? Will I ever find something that will help me to feel normal again? Will this disease destroy my organs? What part of my body will be effected next by this nasty disease?  It is at these weak moments that I turn to the Lord for help. I immerse myself in the scriptures, uplifting music, or even fall to my knees in prayer. When I do this my worry, fear, and doubt are replaced with peace, faith, and happiness.

I am so thankful that my Father in Heaven is always there for me. I know that whatever I must encounter in this life that I do not have to do it alone. I know the Lord will always be right by my side.