Today is the last day of 2013. I have to say that it has been an amazing yet challenging year. The birth of my first grand baby was the absolute highlight of my year. She has been such a sunshine in our lives these past few months. She has brought light and happiness to our family in these trying times. I am so thankful for her and my family and all of the love they have shared with me throughout this year.
I have suffered with this disease since December of 2012 and wasn't diagnoses until March of 2013. I am excited to celebrate the end of this year and have hope for a bright new year.
My hope is filled with optimism for finding something that will put this disease into remission. My faith is strong that the Lord will lead and guide me into finding what will help me gain the strength I need to endure this trial until remission is granted.
My heart is also filled with love and honor for the many friends and family who have surrounded me this year as I have went through this trial. My heart is full of the spirit as I basked in the Love of my Savior as he comforts me in my most difficult times. My heart is overflowing with gratitude for my Father in Heaven as he hears and answers my prayers each day in behalf of myself and my family. I know that he knows all things and as I put my trust in him he will strengthen me to be able to carry this heavy load.
My body is grateful for the things that I can do and I am happy to be a daughter, wife, mother, and a grandmother. I am thankful for all that has transpired this past year but I am also grateful to let this year go and have a bright hope for the upcoming 2014 year. My hope is to stay positive and happy no matter what 2014 will bring!
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Monday, December 30, 2013
Adversity Only a Small Moment
BAD MIGRAINE today… Last night I started a horrible migraine on the left side of my neck and head after arriving to a friends house for a get-together. I did not enjoy the night as much as I wanted to due to the pain.
I woke up today again with the headache still in an up-roar. I knew I would need to see the chiropractor first thing this morning. I went in early and he adjusted my ribs and head. I felt a little bit better. But by 4:00pm the pain was worsening on my right side of my neck and head this time. I am wondering if I am not able to get enough air due to the bad air quality in the valley where I live. It is so hard to figure out what is causing these migraines. I know they come on when my lungs flare. They seem to correlate with each flare-up that I have. So I either am not getting enough air which is causing the migraines and nausea or they are a direct result from the lung pain.
Since these headaches, I have been doing some research and found that I should probably see a neurologist to rule out neuro-sarcs. Migraines and nausea are a direct result of having neuro-sarcs. I am scared to find out if my sarcs have spread to other places in my body and I think that is why I keep putting it off. But I do know I need to bite the bullet and face whatever I must deal with. These headaches are excruciating and keep me completely out of commission when I get them. I think I will find a neurologist after the first of the year.
Sometimes I just don't want to be told there is something else wrong with me. Somedays I just want to pretend that nothing is wrong. I know that I must face this trial head on and deal with it the best way that I can. I must have courage and not fear the future.
I must keep in mind and remember what the Lord told Joseph Smith as he was suffering in jail. "My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment; " And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high."
This gives me so much hope and I know that my adversity and affliction is just a small moment in the Lords timetable and that I must endure it well so that I can return and live with him again someday!
I woke up today again with the headache still in an up-roar. I knew I would need to see the chiropractor first thing this morning. I went in early and he adjusted my ribs and head. I felt a little bit better. But by 4:00pm the pain was worsening on my right side of my neck and head this time. I am wondering if I am not able to get enough air due to the bad air quality in the valley where I live. It is so hard to figure out what is causing these migraines. I know they come on when my lungs flare. They seem to correlate with each flare-up that I have. So I either am not getting enough air which is causing the migraines and nausea or they are a direct result from the lung pain.
Since these headaches, I have been doing some research and found that I should probably see a neurologist to rule out neuro-sarcs. Migraines and nausea are a direct result of having neuro-sarcs. I am scared to find out if my sarcs have spread to other places in my body and I think that is why I keep putting it off. But I do know I need to bite the bullet and face whatever I must deal with. These headaches are excruciating and keep me completely out of commission when I get them. I think I will find a neurologist after the first of the year.
Sometimes I just don't want to be told there is something else wrong with me. Somedays I just want to pretend that nothing is wrong. I know that I must face this trial head on and deal with it the best way that I can. I must have courage and not fear the future.
I must keep in mind and remember what the Lord told Joseph Smith as he was suffering in jail. "My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment; " And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high."
This gives me so much hope and I know that my adversity and affliction is just a small moment in the Lords timetable and that I must endure it well so that I can return and live with him again someday!
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Friends
Knowing I over-did yesterday caused me to add to the pain of my flare-up. But once again I wanted to make my hubby's birthday special. I tried to simplify the best I could but still wanted to make him feel special on his big day.
I went to church with my family today, I made it for about 45 minuted before the pain in my lungs was so intense that it started the migraine up my back, into my neck. My husband could feel my neck lumps and took me home to rest right after the first meeting. I really wanted to stay but knew I needed to get home to try and avoid a full on migraine.
I got home and rested, but while I was lying there I felt a desire to go and visit a neighbor and friend whom I haven't seen for a while. She lives right around the corner from me and I really felt a strong desire to go and see her. I took her a goodie plate and apologized for not coming before Christmas. We had such good time catching up. We laughed and cried together as we shared the trials we are both going through at the moment. I felt so good after I left her house and knew I followed through on a prompting. It not only lifted my spirits today but I know it lifted hers as well.
Right after I was diagnosed this past March, this is the friend that brought me a small wooden sign that said, It's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain." I told her how much I love this little saying and how I look at it each day which helps me make it through my tough times. I wanted to just tell her thank you today and let her know how special of a person she is to me.
Friends are a great thing to have when going through trials. They are someone you can vent your frustrations to. It is someone who will listen and someone you can listen to. They can help you know that you are not alone and can be a shoulder to cry on when you need one. I hope that I was the friend that she needed today. It made me feel good to be able to help someone today. I have really missed being able to serve others since I have been sick. It was nice to be of service today instead of just being served.
I went to church with my family today, I made it for about 45 minuted before the pain in my lungs was so intense that it started the migraine up my back, into my neck. My husband could feel my neck lumps and took me home to rest right after the first meeting. I really wanted to stay but knew I needed to get home to try and avoid a full on migraine.
I got home and rested, but while I was lying there I felt a desire to go and visit a neighbor and friend whom I haven't seen for a while. She lives right around the corner from me and I really felt a strong desire to go and see her. I took her a goodie plate and apologized for not coming before Christmas. We had such good time catching up. We laughed and cried together as we shared the trials we are both going through at the moment. I felt so good after I left her house and knew I followed through on a prompting. It not only lifted my spirits today but I know it lifted hers as well.
Right after I was diagnosed this past March, this is the friend that brought me a small wooden sign that said, It's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain." I told her how much I love this little saying and how I look at it each day which helps me make it through my tough times. I wanted to just tell her thank you today and let her know how special of a person she is to me.
Friends are a great thing to have when going through trials. They are someone you can vent your frustrations to. It is someone who will listen and someone you can listen to. They can help you know that you are not alone and can be a shoulder to cry on when you need one. I hope that I was the friend that she needed today. It made me feel good to be able to help someone today. I have really missed being able to serve others since I have been sick. It was nice to be of service today instead of just being served.
Saturday, December 28, 2013
Celebrations Continue...
Today was my husbands birthday. My boys had planned to take him on an ice fishing adventure for the day. I was excited for him to go and enjoy the day with his boys doing what he loves. I was invited but they all knew I would no way handle the cold, especially during this awful flare-up. So I stayed home with my youngest daughter. We enjoyed spending the day together, watching movies, and helping her decorate her room with her Christmas gifts.
For Christmas this year she wanted her room painted and re-decorated. In fact she was so excited to start on her room, that right after she opened her Christmas presents she went down and started removing everything out of her room, getting it ready for paint. She had her brother and Dad help her tape and putty the nail holes in her walls the day after Christmas. Two days after Christmas her and I painted the corners and edges of her room. Shaniah was pretty relentless and last night she made sure her Dad finished painting her room before he could go on his fishing trip for his birthday.
She was so excited to see her room painted the color she has wanted for the past two years. I have to admit I was pretty hesitant at first to paint a room red, but it really turned out quite well. Plus to see her excitement was even more rewarding. She accented her room with black, grey, and a white bed spread and curtains. She has black furniture and loved how her red walls made such a beautiful background for them.
For Christmas this year she wanted her room painted and re-decorated. In fact she was so excited to start on her room, that right after she opened her Christmas presents she went down and started removing everything out of her room, getting it ready for paint. She had her brother and Dad help her tape and putty the nail holes in her walls the day after Christmas. Two days after Christmas her and I painted the corners and edges of her room. Shaniah was pretty relentless and last night she made sure her Dad finished painting her room before he could go on his fishing trip for his birthday.
She was so excited to see her room painted the color she has wanted for the past two years. I have to admit I was pretty hesitant at first to paint a room red, but it really turned out quite well. Plus to see her excitement was even more rewarding. She accented her room with black, grey, and a white bed spread and curtains. She has black furniture and loved how her red walls made such a beautiful background for them.
Shaniah loved the paint she got for Christmas. She has always wanted red walls!
I have to admit I was worried at first about what a red wall would look like, but turns out they look pretty classy after all.
After my hubby and boys got home from fishing we had a family dinner at home with all of our children and grand baby. We enjoyed good food and had fun playing games after dinner. It was such a fun night celebrating my sweethearts birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY! Hope you had a great day… You deserve it! LOVE YA!
Friday, December 27, 2013
Be the Rock the River Cannot Wash Away
Christmas was very difficult on my body. I had a hunch it might be throw me into a tailspin but I was not going to let the fear of having a flare keep me from enjoying my family during this wonderful time of year.
Although I tried extremely hard to eliminate a great deal of non-essential things this Christmas and really tried to focus on what really mattered, it still was too much for my physical body to handle. One of my doctors said to me a couple weeks ago that he was interested to see how my body would be able to handle Christmas. I quickly dismissed that thought and said to myself, "I will be fine, I am strong, I can handle this holiday….no problem." It's this very comment where I went wrong.
I was bound and determined to not flare and prove I had control over my own body. But once again I was humbled by the fact, when two days after Christmas, I began with one of the largest flare-ups I have had thus far.
I seem to search the scriptures with even greater intensity during these flares. I have been studying a talk entitled," The Strength to Endure." I know I have quoted from it before, but each time I read it something else seems to stand out to me. I know that I have a great deal to learn from this trial and I must continually stay spiritually strong in order to gain the strength I need to endure it.
I have learned first hand that if a day goes by and I forget to immerse myself in the scriptures, read from a conference talk, or even watch a uplifting video I find myself weak both physically and spiritually. I notice that Satan places thoughts of negativity and worthlessness into my head if I am not prepared spiritually for the day. I realized just how important it is to stay strong spiritually during our trials in order to endure them well.
While I was reading this same conference talk, this quote really stood out to me, "You must become the rock that the river cannot wash away." I know first hand that our trials can cause us to become weaker or to become stronger. It is all in how we endure it. I know that when I try to stay spiritually strong and immovable that I am happier and better able to endure my pain and struggles. I know that if I can become that rock (both for myself and my family) and stay spiritually strong and immovable than I will not be influenced or washed away by the temptations or feelings of inadequacies of the evil one. I must continually and consistently keep myself spiritually strong by praying, reading scriptures, or watching uplifting videos in order to persevere and endure this trial to the best of my ability. I want to be that rock that cannot be washed away and endure this trial to the very best of my ability.
Although I tried extremely hard to eliminate a great deal of non-essential things this Christmas and really tried to focus on what really mattered, it still was too much for my physical body to handle. One of my doctors said to me a couple weeks ago that he was interested to see how my body would be able to handle Christmas. I quickly dismissed that thought and said to myself, "I will be fine, I am strong, I can handle this holiday….no problem." It's this very comment where I went wrong.
I was bound and determined to not flare and prove I had control over my own body. But once again I was humbled by the fact, when two days after Christmas, I began with one of the largest flare-ups I have had thus far.
I seem to search the scriptures with even greater intensity during these flares. I have been studying a talk entitled," The Strength to Endure." I know I have quoted from it before, but each time I read it something else seems to stand out to me. I know that I have a great deal to learn from this trial and I must continually stay spiritually strong in order to gain the strength I need to endure it.
I have learned first hand that if a day goes by and I forget to immerse myself in the scriptures, read from a conference talk, or even watch a uplifting video I find myself weak both physically and spiritually. I notice that Satan places thoughts of negativity and worthlessness into my head if I am not prepared spiritually for the day. I realized just how important it is to stay strong spiritually during our trials in order to endure them well.
While I was reading this same conference talk, this quote really stood out to me, "You must become the rock that the river cannot wash away." I know first hand that our trials can cause us to become weaker or to become stronger. It is all in how we endure it. I know that when I try to stay spiritually strong and immovable that I am happier and better able to endure my pain and struggles. I know that if I can become that rock (both for myself and my family) and stay spiritually strong and immovable than I will not be influenced or washed away by the temptations or feelings of inadequacies of the evil one. I must continually and consistently keep myself spiritually strong by praying, reading scriptures, or watching uplifting videos in order to persevere and endure this trial to the best of my ability. I want to be that rock that cannot be washed away and endure this trial to the very best of my ability.
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Lifting Burdens
I found this cute story from the Friend magazine that explains how I have felt this past month. Although this has been a pretty eventful and stressful month, I have found myself strengthened and able to do more than I ever thought I could. I know that this was only possible because of the Lord lifting my burden for me.
“Not good.” Katie heaved a big sigh. “Do you remember that boy who has been teasing me so much?”
“Yes. Thomas?”
“Well, I’ve been asking Heavenly Father to take him away. I just want him to go to another school, or at least another classroom, but nothing has happened. He hasn’t even moved to another seat. Doesn’t Heavenly Father care about me?”
Dad put his hand over Katie’s. “Sure He cares, honey. But maybe He’s helping you in ways you aren’t even aware of.”
“What do you mean?”
Dad leaned back in his chair. “Do you remember a few years ago, when our family went backpacking in the mountains?”
“I think so.”
“You were very little then, but you wanted to carry your own pack. I’m afraid that it got pretty heavy long before we reached our campsite.”
“I remember now.” Katie’s face brightened. “I was tired, so we sat down to rest beside a stream. And then, when we started out again, you walked right beside me. The pack seemed much lighter then, and I was able to carry it all the way to camp.”
“Did you know that I was helping you?” Dad asked quietly.
“You mean by walking beside me and singing with me?”
“Yes. And also as we walked side by side, I was reaching out my hand and lifting the pack up off your back.”
“You were?” Katie looked at him in surprise. “And I didn’t even know it. No wonder my pack felt lighter—it was!”
Dad nodded. “Sometimes when we have burdens to bear, God doesn’t take them away. He just helps us carry them.”
Sometimes I want the Lord to just take this illness away but this story really helped remind me that although our trials may not go away we do have a loving Heavenly Father who will help us carry our load if we but ask him for help. Our Savior knows our suffering and will come to our aid if we just ask.
I know I was able to do all that was required of me this past month because of this. I could have never carried this heavy load alone. I know the Lord was with me and helped me carry my burden and made it easier for me to bear. One of my favorite scriptures that remind me of this is in Mosiah 24:14 which reads: "I will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs."
Lifting the Pack
“How was school today?” Dad asked Katie as she sat down to do her homework.“Not good.” Katie heaved a big sigh. “Do you remember that boy who has been teasing me so much?”
“Yes. Thomas?”
“Well, I’ve been asking Heavenly Father to take him away. I just want him to go to another school, or at least another classroom, but nothing has happened. He hasn’t even moved to another seat. Doesn’t Heavenly Father care about me?”
Dad put his hand over Katie’s. “Sure He cares, honey. But maybe He’s helping you in ways you aren’t even aware of.”
“What do you mean?”
Dad leaned back in his chair. “Do you remember a few years ago, when our family went backpacking in the mountains?”
“I think so.”
“You were very little then, but you wanted to carry your own pack. I’m afraid that it got pretty heavy long before we reached our campsite.”
“I remember now.” Katie’s face brightened. “I was tired, so we sat down to rest beside a stream. And then, when we started out again, you walked right beside me. The pack seemed much lighter then, and I was able to carry it all the way to camp.”
“Did you know that I was helping you?” Dad asked quietly.
“You mean by walking beside me and singing with me?”
“Yes. And also as we walked side by side, I was reaching out my hand and lifting the pack up off your back.”
“You were?” Katie looked at him in surprise. “And I didn’t even know it. No wonder my pack felt lighter—it was!”
Dad nodded. “Sometimes when we have burdens to bear, God doesn’t take them away. He just helps us carry them.”
Sometimes I want the Lord to just take this illness away but this story really helped remind me that although our trials may not go away we do have a loving Heavenly Father who will help us carry our load if we but ask him for help. Our Savior knows our suffering and will come to our aid if we just ask.
I know I was able to do all that was required of me this past month because of this. I could have never carried this heavy load alone. I know the Lord was with me and helped me carry my burden and made it easier for me to bear. One of my favorite scriptures that remind me of this is in Mosiah 24:14 which reads: "I will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs."
I have come to realize that it does not matter what burdens we are carrying or what trial we must endure, the answer is the same. We must rely upon the Lord each day and he will ease our suffering and lift our load so that we can make it through whatever we must endure in this life. I am so thankful that the Lord lightened my load this past month and allowed me to be a part of this wonderful holiday season.
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Merry Christmas
What an amazing day today! I loved spending it with all of my children, my hubby, and my first grand daughter. It was so fun to watch everyone enjoy our sweet little Landee today. My oldest son told me that it was Landee who just made Christmas for all of us today! It has been many years since we had a baby in our home for Christmas morning. Words can't express how much love a new baby can bring ito your home.
Before we opened any presents my kids made Kim and I open ours first. I was so touched to see just how much my kids care about me and want me to get better. Each of their gifts reflected that.
Before we opened any presents my kids made Kim and I open ours first. I was so touched to see just how much my kids care about me and want me to get better. Each of their gifts reflected that.
C'Jay gave me a gluten free, dairy free fudge and a gluten free, dairy free, egg free cook book.
Love this C'Jay... I will definitely be using this cookbook and be eating all of my fudge!!
It has been soooo long since I have had fudge!!!
Kaylee, Bubba, and Ireland gave me this shirt to wear when I am having a flare, so everyone will know when I am "Out of service....and to blame my Sarcs." I laughed so hard when I saw this shirt it just made my day. Landee gave me a phone case that has her pictures on it and says "I love Grandma"
SO CUTE!
Laughing at such a cute shirt!!!
Landee gave me an "I love Grandma" phone case
with her cute picture collage I took when we went
shopping to Kohls two weeks ago.
Niah was so sweet and bought me organic shampoo, conditioner, and body wash for Christmas.
She really thought about giving me what I need to be using. Thanks Niah!
My kids and I went in and bought a drum set for my hubby to go and pound on when
he just needs a break!!!
No Care-giver burn-out for sure now!!!
Landee did not like it when Grandpa played the LOUD DRUMS!!
J'Dee did not want us to spend our money on a letterman's jacket this year for him, he told me he
wanted me to use the money for my medical expenses. We surprised him with this shadow box showcasing his baseball glove, jersey, number, his official letter, and pins. He loved it!
I think I loved giving Landee her jumper more than she loved it!!
To be with my family on this Christmas day was the best gift I could ever ask for. But
the present that just melted my heart was to see Landee smile and have so much fun today!
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Family Traditions and Togetherness
Today was Christmas Eve. The night before we celebrate the birth of our Savior. I am so thankful for the wonderful spirit this holiday season brings into our lives and homes. I can feel it so strong as I try and focus on what matters most this season.
For the past 25 years, even since I was married, we have been going to my parents home on Christmas Eve. We have had the traditional turkey and ham dinner, doing a white elephant game, and then exchanging gifts from one another. But for me the highlight was spending time with my loved ones and basking in the spirit of family traditions and togetherness.
Over the years we have tried to implement the simple scene of the Nativity at this family gathering. Today, I was able to find many old family movies and pictures from the past 10 years from this far-from-spiritual Nativity performance. Over the years we have had a whole lot of fun and have made some pretty great memories. I laughed and cried as I watched and treasured these times. I cried as I saw my grandma, my two grandpa's and my brother who were once with us at these events but will only be attendance at tonight's party in spirit. I laughed at the many mishaps that happened as we tried to pull off this humble little manager scene. Like; Mary getting thrown from the donkey by mistake, Joseph getting tripped by the donkey, our girl version of baby Jesus in a pink robe screaming in a manger, our two small dogs leashed by the kids to be the live sheep, kids running from the manger scene to grab some food, and a whole lot of laughing and giggling from everyone.
It was so fun to watch and see just how much the grandchildren had grown over the years. Many which are now teenagers. I was able to make a simple DVD of the past 10 years using the videos and pictures from the past Christmas'. It was so fun and I enjoyed it immensely. I made copies for my two brothers and their families as well as my parents. At the party we all enjoyed watching it. Everyone laughed and cried as we shared these precious moments together. My mother especially enjoyed watching how many good times she was able to have with her parents before they left this earth.
Isn't this what Christmas is really all about? Sharing good times and laughter during the holiday season and basking in the warmth of our Saviors love. I will always treasure these holiday memories both past, present, and the many good times to come, in the future.
For the past 25 years, even since I was married, we have been going to my parents home on Christmas Eve. We have had the traditional turkey and ham dinner, doing a white elephant game, and then exchanging gifts from one another. But for me the highlight was spending time with my loved ones and basking in the spirit of family traditions and togetherness.
Over the years we have tried to implement the simple scene of the Nativity at this family gathering. Today, I was able to find many old family movies and pictures from the past 10 years from this far-from-spiritual Nativity performance. Over the years we have had a whole lot of fun and have made some pretty great memories. I laughed and cried as I watched and treasured these times. I cried as I saw my grandma, my two grandpa's and my brother who were once with us at these events but will only be attendance at tonight's party in spirit. I laughed at the many mishaps that happened as we tried to pull off this humble little manager scene. Like; Mary getting thrown from the donkey by mistake, Joseph getting tripped by the donkey, our girl version of baby Jesus in a pink robe screaming in a manger, our two small dogs leashed by the kids to be the live sheep, kids running from the manger scene to grab some food, and a whole lot of laughing and giggling from everyone.
It was so fun to watch and see just how much the grandchildren had grown over the years. Many which are now teenagers. I was able to make a simple DVD of the past 10 years using the videos and pictures from the past Christmas'. It was so fun and I enjoyed it immensely. I made copies for my two brothers and their families as well as my parents. At the party we all enjoyed watching it. Everyone laughed and cried as we shared these precious moments together. My mother especially enjoyed watching how many good times she was able to have with her parents before they left this earth.
Isn't this what Christmas is really all about? Sharing good times and laughter during the holiday season and basking in the warmth of our Saviors love. I will always treasure these holiday memories both past, present, and the many good times to come, in the future.
Monday, December 23, 2013
Power of Prayer
Two days until Christmas and I still have a great deal to do. My family could see that I was a bit stressed out about how I was going to get things done today without causing a huge flare-up for Christmas.
Yesterday, my 18 year old son said to me, "Mom, you need to be really careful these next few days and not over-do. We need you for Christmas, we need you to feel good so you can enjoy the day." This really touched my heart as he expressed his love and concern for me. I realized just how hard it is for my family to see me in pain. I really try hard to hide my pain, but they know when I don't feel good even when I tell them everything is fine.
My hubby had to work today so I was on my own to try and tie up all the loose ends. I prayed really hard and asked for the strength to be able to accomplish what I needed to. Little did I know that not only would I be strengthened, but also my prayers would be answered through others today.
My mom called first thing this morning and asked me if she could pick up my groceries for me today. She said she was already going to the store and wanted to take one thing off of my list. I was so grateful for her helping me. Grocery shopping seems to tank me really fast. Even on my good days I can get to the store and shop for about 30 minutes before the extreme fatigue and pain sets in. My mom is so amazing and I love her so much.
My youngest daughter who has her learners permit, volunteered to take me to my chiropractors appointment and to help me with the last minute Christmas shopping. I was very grateful for her help. I was able to get my head and neck adjusted one last time. They were both out again due to my tensing up caused by the chest pain. We finished the last minute items and headed home. I was pretty tired but still had the strength to finish the DVD projects for my kids.
Around dinner time my oldest son called and offered to pick up dinner for us. He brought pizza for everyone. But he knew I couldn't have any so he drove around to two pizza places, and 3 fast food restaurants until he found something gluten and dairy free. He made me laugh as he shared his funny version of how he traveled high and low to find food for me. He finally was able to obtain a hamburger wrapped in lettuce leaf for me to eat. I was so thankful for him taking care of dinner tonight plus his determination to find something that I could eat.
My prayers were answered today. My family was inspired to offer their help and I was strengthened to do more than I could normally do. I am so thankful for the power of prayer and it's ability to help us daily in our time of need. I know that sometimes I think I am tough and can do things alone. It is these times when I fall flat upon my face and soon realize that I am not as tough as I thought I was. But when I rely upon the Lord for strength and pray for help, he answers in his own way and his own time. I then learn that with his help I can make it through anything that is place before me.
Yesterday, my 18 year old son said to me, "Mom, you need to be really careful these next few days and not over-do. We need you for Christmas, we need you to feel good so you can enjoy the day." This really touched my heart as he expressed his love and concern for me. I realized just how hard it is for my family to see me in pain. I really try hard to hide my pain, but they know when I don't feel good even when I tell them everything is fine.
My hubby had to work today so I was on my own to try and tie up all the loose ends. I prayed really hard and asked for the strength to be able to accomplish what I needed to. Little did I know that not only would I be strengthened, but also my prayers would be answered through others today.
My mom called first thing this morning and asked me if she could pick up my groceries for me today. She said she was already going to the store and wanted to take one thing off of my list. I was so grateful for her helping me. Grocery shopping seems to tank me really fast. Even on my good days I can get to the store and shop for about 30 minutes before the extreme fatigue and pain sets in. My mom is so amazing and I love her so much.
My youngest daughter who has her learners permit, volunteered to take me to my chiropractors appointment and to help me with the last minute Christmas shopping. I was very grateful for her help. I was able to get my head and neck adjusted one last time. They were both out again due to my tensing up caused by the chest pain. We finished the last minute items and headed home. I was pretty tired but still had the strength to finish the DVD projects for my kids.
Around dinner time my oldest son called and offered to pick up dinner for us. He brought pizza for everyone. But he knew I couldn't have any so he drove around to two pizza places, and 3 fast food restaurants until he found something gluten and dairy free. He made me laugh as he shared his funny version of how he traveled high and low to find food for me. He finally was able to obtain a hamburger wrapped in lettuce leaf for me to eat. I was so thankful for him taking care of dinner tonight plus his determination to find something that I could eat.
My prayers were answered today. My family was inspired to offer their help and I was strengthened to do more than I could normally do. I am so thankful for the power of prayer and it's ability to help us daily in our time of need. I know that sometimes I think I am tough and can do things alone. It is these times when I fall flat upon my face and soon realize that I am not as tough as I thought I was. But when I rely upon the Lord for strength and pray for help, he answers in his own way and his own time. I then learn that with his help I can make it through anything that is place before me.
Sunday, December 22, 2013
Trials..Look to the Light
Today this video touched me so much. I felt the spirit so strong as I watched it. Please take the time to watch it. It will feel you with hope and joy this holiday season as it did me. I know that no matter what trials we are going through, they will be but a small moment. I know as we look to the light of our Savior, Jesus Christ and endure our trials we can make it through anything. I am so thankful for the opportunity to celebrate the Savior's birth at this time of year. Going through this trial has really brought me closer to the Savior as I have learned to rely upon him each and every day. He suffered, bled, and died, not only our sins but also for our pains, sicknesses, and grief so that he would know how to succor us in our time of need. I am so eternally grateful for his willingness to sacrifice his life for us.
Trials...Look to the Light
Saturday, December 21, 2013
Fun Family Tradition
Today was a fun family day. All of my children came over and we had a fun day. All the boys went hunting and ice fishing today. My girls and grand baby stayed home and helped me make chili for when the boys got home.
When they returned we all enjoyed the chili, played cards, and watched Christmas specials on TV. It is on simple days like these that bring me so much joy. I loved being able to hold the baby and put her to sleep today. It was so fun to just be together as a family.
Today I really felt the spirit of Christmas. I realized it is not in the gifts, or hustle or bustle of the season. Christmas is found in spending precious time with the ones you love and care about. It is laughing and playing together.
I love taking pictures of these fun times that we have together throughout the year. I use these pictures, plus many others, as well as videos and make a DVD for each of our children. I am really excited to share the DVD's I have been working on for them. This is something I am still able to do for them. This has been a tradition each Christmas. There are many things I have had to give up this year due to my illness, but this was not going to be one of them. I love watching the faces on my kids light up on Christmas morning as we all sit around and watch each others DVD. It is a fun way to re-live the many things they have accomplished as well as the memories we made throughout the year. I am thankful to be able to continue this fun family tradition.
When they returned we all enjoyed the chili, played cards, and watched Christmas specials on TV. It is on simple days like these that bring me so much joy. I loved being able to hold the baby and put her to sleep today. It was so fun to just be together as a family.
Today I really felt the spirit of Christmas. I realized it is not in the gifts, or hustle or bustle of the season. Christmas is found in spending precious time with the ones you love and care about. It is laughing and playing together.
I love taking pictures of these fun times that we have together throughout the year. I use these pictures, plus many others, as well as videos and make a DVD for each of our children. I am really excited to share the DVD's I have been working on for them. This is something I am still able to do for them. This has been a tradition each Christmas. There are many things I have had to give up this year due to my illness, but this was not going to be one of them. I love watching the faces on my kids light up on Christmas morning as we all sit around and watch each others DVD. It is a fun way to re-live the many things they have accomplished as well as the memories we made throughout the year. I am thankful to be able to continue this fun family tradition.
Friday, December 20, 2013
Enduring Love
I woke up at 3:00 am with a horrible migraine combines with nausea due to all the pain. Thank Goodness for Chiropractors! My hubby took me in as soon as his office opened. Within minutes he was able to put my neck back in place as well as my ribs that were also out as well. The pain started to diminish and by 2:00 that afternoon I was finally rid of the horrible migraine.
I am so thankful I can find something that will help me to be out of pain. I know now that once the pain starts to subside I have to not go crazy by overdoing and set myself up again for another cycle of pain. My hubby and kids seem to always remind me when they see me trying to do too much. It just feels so good to be able to get up and be able to do normal things during my good times. But I know I have to monitor it or I will be in a huge flare up.
Today my hubby did the difficult things and let me do the simple things to get ready for Christmas. I told him that tomorrow he needs to go hunting and fishing with his boys. I know he needs to get away and have fun on his days off. He needs to have a day just for him. I love him dearly and know that I would never make it through this with out him by my side.
This video inspires me so much! Watching this couple go through their physical difficulties together helps me to be grateful for my own challenges and I know that we will make it through anything as long as we are together.
I am so thankful I can find something that will help me to be out of pain. I know now that once the pain starts to subside I have to not go crazy by overdoing and set myself up again for another cycle of pain. My hubby and kids seem to always remind me when they see me trying to do too much. It just feels so good to be able to get up and be able to do normal things during my good times. But I know I have to monitor it or I will be in a huge flare up.
Today my hubby did the difficult things and let me do the simple things to get ready for Christmas. I told him that tomorrow he needs to go hunting and fishing with his boys. I know he needs to get away and have fun on his days off. He needs to have a day just for him. I love him dearly and know that I would never make it through this with out him by my side.
This video inspires me so much! Watching this couple go through their physical difficulties together helps me to be grateful for my own challenges and I know that we will make it through anything as long as we are together.
Enduring Love
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Simplify Christmas...Celebrate Christ
Today a huge winter storm hit today. Due to the weather I was unable to go to the chiropractor to get my neck adjusted. The migraine was getting pretty bad to the painful lung flare up. My body automatically pulls my neck to my right shoulder as my body tenses up from the pain which then puts out my neck and pinches nerves in my neck. I tried everything today to get rid of the pain, from epson salt soaks, do-terra oils, massage, heating pad, ice packs, and even pain pills. Nothing seemed to get rid of it. I stayed down to try and get rid of the pain on my own.
My hubby is off tomorrow and I will definitely be making a trip to the chiropractor tomorrow. I still have a bit to do to get ready for Christmas, but my hubby is planning on helping me out tomorrow. I am just hoping and praying to feel better so we can do it together.
I know I just need to keep it simple this year and focus on what truly matters this year!
I love this quote!
My hubby is off tomorrow and I will definitely be making a trip to the chiropractor tomorrow. I still have a bit to do to get ready for Christmas, but my hubby is planning on helping me out tomorrow. I am just hoping and praying to feel better so we can do it together.
I know I just need to keep it simple this year and focus on what truly matters this year!
I love this quote!
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Best Christmas Gift!
Today once again I was beginning yet another flare-up. I am trying so hard to not over-do, eat what inflames me, or get stressed out. WOW I can truly say it is much harder to do than you think. I have tried to eliminate many unnecessary things that would add to my painful flare-up. I just really seem to struggle with wanting to carry on all the same family traditions that I have done for years.
However, this year is really making me sit back and decide what is most important and what I can do without. It really has made me appreciate my body and all the things that I used to do. I will never take what my body is able to do for granite ever again. I know each day I need to thank the Lord for what I can do. If I do this it helps me to stay positive and carry on each day with the love of the Savior in my heart.
However, this year is really making me sit back and decide what is most important and what I can do without. It really has made me appreciate my body and all the things that I used to do. I will never take what my body is able to do for granite ever again. I know each day I need to thank the Lord for what I can do. If I do this it helps me to stay positive and carry on each day with the love of the Savior in my heart.
I was starting to stress out today because my shopping was not done and I have not felt good enough to go out again. But my daughter told me today that the best Christmas gift I could give them would be a pain-free day for me on Christmas. I realized just how important it is to feel good on Christmas not just for me but also for them. To be surrounded by the ones I love and those who love me is the best gift I can give to them as well as my Savior this Christmas.
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Five Generations with my Dad
Today we were able to go to my Grandma Parry's house and visit her with the baby. We have been wanting to go and see her and get a 5 generation picture with my dad, but have been unable to find a day where all of us are doing okay. Grandma has some very difficult physical challenges and is such a strong woman. I have gained so much strength from her as I have watched her struggle through these difficulties. She never complains and still lives on her own. She does not want to be a burden on anyone and makes sure she rides her stationary bike everyday to help with her physical limitations. She is my dad's mother and has been through a great deal in her life. I know she suffers greatly but does not want us to worry about her.
Grandma was so excited to see her newest great great granddaughter today. She has had 7 born in the past two years. She is an sweet and amazing grandmother. Here are the pictures that we took today.
Landee was not feeling the best and was a bit unhappy. We were able to get a few good pictures without her crying.
Grandma was so excited to see her newest great great granddaughter today. She has had 7 born in the past two years. She is an sweet and amazing grandmother. Here are the pictures that we took today.
Landee was not feeling the best and was a bit unhappy. We were able to get a few good pictures without her crying.
5 Generations: My Grandma Lois Parry, my dad Randy Parry, Me, Kaylee, and Landee
Landee's sad lip... so cute!
I love this one....probably because Landee is looking at ME! haha!
Monday, December 16, 2013
Quality Time vs. Quantity
Although I woke up in a moderate flare yesterday, I knew that in order for me to go to the Christmas party later that evening, I would need to rest my body and hopefully get the inflammation in my body to go down. It can be very frustrating not being able to do everything you want to do. I have found it really hard for me to pace myself and save up for events that I really want to be at. Last year at this time I never even had to think about pacing myself. I would go and do whatever and whenever I wanted to. This illness has really made me thankful for what I can do. It has helped me to focus on the things that are MOST important because I really have to pick and choose what I can do.
Although I hate not being with everyone at every event and being unable to do all the things we used to do, I have to be happy and enjoy the times we do have together. I need to make the most of each thing I am able to do and and make each moment count. I guess you could say for me it's more about the quality of time I spend with them versus the quantity.
By resting and staying down, I was able to have the strength to be able to attend the Fuller Christmas party for a couple of hours before the pain returned with a vengeance. We had another great time spending time with family and friends from my hubbys' side of the family! It is quite a large group and can get very noisy at times but we had a great deal of fun just spending time together once again. I was so looking forward to getting a family picture with everyone together since my hubby was there, but my daughter, son-in-law, and baby were not feeling well and were unable to come. We missed them terribly but knew they needed to rest so they could get feeling better for Christmas! We enjoyed the family and had a great time!
Here are some of the pictures from the party.....
Although I hate not being with everyone at every event and being unable to do all the things we used to do, I have to be happy and enjoy the times we do have together. I need to make the most of each thing I am able to do and and make each moment count. I guess you could say for me it's more about the quality of time I spend with them versus the quantity.
By resting and staying down, I was able to have the strength to be able to attend the Fuller Christmas party for a couple of hours before the pain returned with a vengeance. We had another great time spending time with family and friends from my hubbys' side of the family! It is quite a large group and can get very noisy at times but we had a great deal of fun just spending time together once again. I was so looking forward to getting a family picture with everyone together since my hubby was there, but my daughter, son-in-law, and baby were not feeling well and were unable to come. We missed them terribly but knew they needed to rest so they could get feeling better for Christmas! We enjoyed the family and had a great time!
Here are some of the pictures from the party.....
My family with Mr. and Mrs. Claus
Casey and Shauna's Family
Aud and Mike's Family
Heidi and Josh's Family
Kevin and Stacie's Family
Tyler and Mary's Family
Imari and Cory's Family
Stetson and Natalie's Family
Arielle, Kamu, and Aston
J'Dee and Camree
Me and Shaniah having fun with the kids!
Sunday, December 15, 2013
What Shall We Give This Christmas?
Today, as I sat pondering about this past week, I realized that it is in the little moments that matter most. Sometimes in the hustle and bustle of the season we can lose sight of what really matters. In the years past I would bake up a storm or make some handmade craft for friends and family. Although these are fun and not to mention, time consuming, are they really what we should be focusing on during the holiday as we celebrate the birth of our Savior?
This video is a reminder of the importance of the random acts of kindness that we should do to honor the birth of our Savior. They may seem small and simple but can truly mean the most. Rather than busying ourselves with things of no real worth, we should be finding ways to honor the birth of our Savior by serving others no matter how small or insignificant. May we all remember this during this festive season and find ways to show our love and appreciation to the Savior as we serve and give the gift of service to others this year.
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Merry Christmas Grandma Rhea
I was so excited to be able to spend my first holiday family Christmas Party today with my new grand-baby Ireland. She has been such a light in our family at this time. This party was the Parry Family Santa Party which we have done every year for Grandma Rhea (who just recently passed away). It was a bittersweet party today. We did this party in honor of her. My mom made her favorite cookie and soup recipes.
Each year the kids would all sit on Santa's lap and then on Great Grandma's lap for her to give them each a special present. These presents were small and simple but very meaningful. Even in her elderly years she would always bake us pumpkin or banana bread as her gift to us. I really missed her physical presence at the party, but we all felt her special spirit there today. Knowing we were carrying on her traditions would really tickle her.
My sweet mom also found cute ornaments that she gave to all her grandkids to remember Grandma Rhea today. It was such a special party. We all enjoyed sitting on Santa's lap and laughing at the antlers and red nose he place upon my son J'Dee's girlfriend, Camree. She is such a sweetheart and such a good sport! We all enjoyed each other and really missed not having my hubby with us today. He had to work at the LDS Conference Center tonight for security at the Christmas Concert. He will be with us tomorrow at the other family party.
No tears were shed until the end of the night when my daughter and I went to deliver the 12 days of Christmas. For the past several years, my family, and my two brothers families' have split up the 12 days of Christmas and have delivered them to both of our Grandma's and our parents. Tonight there was one less house to go to, my Grandma Rhea's. My heart ached and tears flowed as we drove around delivering the gifts to the two others. Knowing how she looked forward to what would be left at her doorstep each night really made me miss her. I do know she is our guardian angel and is watching over us and will definitely be in our hearts this holiday season.
Family is everything and time on this earth is too short to waste. I hope each day I will remember to cherish each day with my family and each moment I have with them. Because we never know when this moment will be our last with them.
Merry Christmas Grandma Rhea!
My Sweet Dad and Mom with Santa
Each year the kids would all sit on Santa's lap and then on Great Grandma's lap for her to give them each a special present. These presents were small and simple but very meaningful. Even in her elderly years she would always bake us pumpkin or banana bread as her gift to us. I really missed her physical presence at the party, but we all felt her special spirit there today. Knowing we were carrying on her traditions would really tickle her.
My sweet mom also found cute ornaments that she gave to all her grandkids to remember Grandma Rhea today. It was such a special party. We all enjoyed sitting on Santa's lap and laughing at the antlers and red nose he place upon my son J'Dee's girlfriend, Camree. She is such a sweetheart and such a good sport! We all enjoyed each other and really missed not having my hubby with us today. He had to work at the LDS Conference Center tonight for security at the Christmas Concert. He will be with us tomorrow at the other family party.
No tears were shed until the end of the night when my daughter and I went to deliver the 12 days of Christmas. For the past several years, my family, and my two brothers families' have split up the 12 days of Christmas and have delivered them to both of our Grandma's and our parents. Tonight there was one less house to go to, my Grandma Rhea's. My heart ached and tears flowed as we drove around delivering the gifts to the two others. Knowing how she looked forward to what would be left at her doorstep each night really made me miss her. I do know she is our guardian angel and is watching over us and will definitely be in our hearts this holiday season.
Family is everything and time on this earth is too short to waste. I hope each day I will remember to cherish each day with my family and each moment I have with them. Because we never know when this moment will be our last with them.
Merry Christmas Grandma Rhea!
Rudolph Camree...so cute J'Dee and Camree
C'Jay... never too old for Santa My family!
Shaniah Loves Santa! haha
Baby Ireland's First Christmas with Santa, her Daddy, and Mommy
My Family with Santa
Friday, December 13, 2013
Gift of Ourselves
Christmas is only a week and a half away. I am so excited to share this holiday with my family. We have two Christmas parties this weekend. I am hoping that I am feeling well enough to go to both of them. I love spending time with both my immediate and extended family. This year I have really had to pace myself in regards to shopping, baking, setting up decorations, and just the plain business of the season. I have had to really rethink what is most important in order to save up the energy I do have so that I can be there for my families in the way the Savior would want me to.
Giving the gift of ourselves to others, especially my family, at this time of year is really what I am trying to focus on this year. I know my family is happy when I feel good when I am around them. I do not want to worry them and make them feel scared in any way. By resting and saving myself for the most special holiday moments will truly show them what really matters most during this Christmas season.
This is a a cute video that reminds of us the Real Meaning Behind Christmas.
Thursday, December 12, 2013
Motherhood- An Eternal Partnership with God
Motherhood...... Today my sweet daughter and her new baby were not feeling well. They both had thrush and were really struggling. My daughter did not want to call and ask for help today because she knew I was having a painful day. Around noon, I decided to call her and find out how their day was going. She said they were doing fine. Even though she said she they were doing okay, I could tell in her voice that something was not right. As soon as I hung up the phone, I had my son take me to her house. We got there to find them both still in bed together. I tried my best to help by picking up their medications, making lunch, and then listening and talking with her.
We talked about Motherhood and just how hard it really is. We shared the truth with one another about being a mother. We agreed that crying babies, late nights, no sleep, breastfeeding, and health issues are never what we would consider to be divine at all! I told her that Motherhood is not always easy but it always will be worth it.
She shared her desire with me of wanting to be a perfect mother for this little one and her desire to do everything right. I told her over the many years I have been a mother that all the Lord expects of you is to do your best. If we do that, then he will do the rest. The Lord has not intended for us to kill ourselves running around like chickens with our heads cut off in trying to be a perfect mother. I told her we would not be on this earth to learn by our mistakes if we were already perfect at being mothers.
I shared with her that the Lord has entrusted this child to you and expects you to love her unconditionally, not matter what she does or puts you through. He knew you could handle this strong little spirit and that is why she is yours.
We talked about how satan does not want us to succeed as mothers. He wants to put thoughts of inadequacies in our minds and make us believe that we our not good mothers. Satan wants to stop the eternal plan of families and make us all feel miserable. We shared why it is so important to combat those thoughts by taking time to pray, read scriptures, and finding time for ourselves to refuel.
I found this video that I want to dedicate to my daughter who is such a beautiful, amazing new mother and let her know just how proud I am of her and the mother she is becoming! I know that no matter what, the Lord will always help her in this calling of motherhood. There is truly no better calling in this world but that of a Mother and I know that all we need to do is try our very best and then the Lord will do the rest.
We talked about Motherhood and just how hard it really is. We shared the truth with one another about being a mother. We agreed that crying babies, late nights, no sleep, breastfeeding, and health issues are never what we would consider to be divine at all! I told her that Motherhood is not always easy but it always will be worth it.
She shared her desire with me of wanting to be a perfect mother for this little one and her desire to do everything right. I told her over the many years I have been a mother that all the Lord expects of you is to do your best. If we do that, then he will do the rest. The Lord has not intended for us to kill ourselves running around like chickens with our heads cut off in trying to be a perfect mother. I told her we would not be on this earth to learn by our mistakes if we were already perfect at being mothers.
I shared with her that the Lord has entrusted this child to you and expects you to love her unconditionally, not matter what she does or puts you through. He knew you could handle this strong little spirit and that is why she is yours.
We talked about how satan does not want us to succeed as mothers. He wants to put thoughts of inadequacies in our minds and make us believe that we our not good mothers. Satan wants to stop the eternal plan of families and make us all feel miserable. We shared why it is so important to combat those thoughts by taking time to pray, read scriptures, and finding time for ourselves to refuel.
I found this video that I want to dedicate to my daughter who is such a beautiful, amazing new mother and let her know just how proud I am of her and the mother she is becoming! I know that no matter what, the Lord will always help her in this calling of motherhood. There is truly no better calling in this world but that of a Mother and I know that all we need to do is try our very best and then the Lord will do the rest.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Taking Time to Enjoy Life!
I was so thankful to spend time with my husband, daughter, and grand baby today. We enjoyed going to the Landee's doctor with her today. We loved spending the afternoon going to lunch, and then back home. This special picture was taken today with Grandpa. Having Ireland in our family is such a beautiful blessing and makes you realize the little things that are so important each and every day.
I never knew just how much fun it would be to be grandparents.
Kim and I are always trying to steal Landee away from one another.
It is so fun!
Landee in her cute little beanie going to lunch with her mom, grandpa, and grandma!
Taking time each day to slow down and spend time with the ones you love
really helps you enjoy life to the fullest!
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Everything Happens for a Reason
Today was an extremely long day. We left for the specialist at 9:00am and did not get home until 6:00p.m. For some reason I went a week earlier than my appointment, so we had to wait around to be squeezed in among her other appointments.
While we were waiting for our appointment, another specialist met with us. As we explained to her the symptoms I was having, she told us about a new device that helps migraines and other pain by interrupting the autonomic nervous response. She went to her office to get the web site from the business in Cache Valley that sells them. She decided to call the owner while we were there to get more information for us. When she called the owner of the product just happened to be in the same city we were in at that time. He was passing through and just happened to be only 5 minutes away. He came by and demonstrated his product on me. It was amazing how much relief I felt as he used the vibrations directly on the pressure points on my head, neck, and shoulder.
I was so thankful to be at the right place at the right time today in order to get this device that will help my pain. I know things happen for a reason and the Lord is guiding and directing me! I am so blessed in this process and know I am never alone! After today I know that everything happens for a reason!
While we were waiting for our appointment, another specialist met with us. As we explained to her the symptoms I was having, she told us about a new device that helps migraines and other pain by interrupting the autonomic nervous response. She went to her office to get the web site from the business in Cache Valley that sells them. She decided to call the owner while we were there to get more information for us. When she called the owner of the product just happened to be in the same city we were in at that time. He was passing through and just happened to be only 5 minutes away. He came by and demonstrated his product on me. It was amazing how much relief I felt as he used the vibrations directly on the pressure points on my head, neck, and shoulder.
I was so thankful to be at the right place at the right time today in order to get this device that will help my pain. I know things happen for a reason and the Lord is guiding and directing me! I am so blessed in this process and know I am never alone! After today I know that everything happens for a reason!
Monday, December 9, 2013
Keeping my Chin Up!
Today was day 2 of the bad flare up. I figure out the reason behind my breathing attack yesterday. It was due to the fact that my adrenal supplement ran out last week and had not came in yet. I had not taken it for 5 days and really needed it. My hubby took me to the chiropractor today to pick up the adrenal supplements that just came in and got my neck adjusted from the flare.
My chiropractor told my husband to come and look how far my neck was out of its occiput socket. He said each time you flare your autonomic nervous system automatically tightens the muscles in the shoulder and neck and then pull the socket out which results in the pinching of nerves in the top of your neck. He said is causes a horrible migraine each time that will not go away, no matter what you take until it gets adjusted. It takes about 12 hours after the adjustment for the headache to completely go away due to all the swelling. This happens about once or twice each week depending on the severity of the flare.
I am grateful to find relief from the chiropractor for my pain. I have an appointment tomorrow with my homeopathic/natural-path doctor. I am optimistic that we can find some natural remedy to help with these attacks.
I know that going the natural route can take much longer and it requires a great deal of patience, but I do feel better on my good days and I am so very grateful to not have to add to my problems with any horrible side effects.
I know I must keep my chin up through it all and not get discouraged or give up on the process of finding relief. I know if I trust in the Lord through out this process and do all I can do, than I know he will lead and guide me to what will help me find relief.
My chiropractor told my husband to come and look how far my neck was out of its occiput socket. He said each time you flare your autonomic nervous system automatically tightens the muscles in the shoulder and neck and then pull the socket out which results in the pinching of nerves in the top of your neck. He said is causes a horrible migraine each time that will not go away, no matter what you take until it gets adjusted. It takes about 12 hours after the adjustment for the headache to completely go away due to all the swelling. This happens about once or twice each week depending on the severity of the flare.
I am grateful to find relief from the chiropractor for my pain. I have an appointment tomorrow with my homeopathic/natural-path doctor. I am optimistic that we can find some natural remedy to help with these attacks.
I know that going the natural route can take much longer and it requires a great deal of patience, but I do feel better on my good days and I am so very grateful to not have to add to my problems with any horrible side effects.
I know I must keep my chin up through it all and not get discouraged or give up on the process of finding relief. I know if I trust in the Lord through out this process and do all I can do, than I know he will lead and guide me to what will help me find relief.
Sunday, December 8, 2013
Growing Pains
Today I had a very painful breathing attack. I knew that the last few days would catch up to me sooner or later. I made it to church for a very short while. As soon as I got home my teenager decided to stress me out by having an attitude with me. My oldest son stepped in to divert the stress away from me and I went straight to my room to calm down. My son then followed me and about 30 seconds later my involuntary breathing attack began. It lasted for about 5 minutes and scared the both of us. I remembered him asking if he should call 911. I could not speak but just held up my finger to signal, just wait it out. After the attack I felt pins and needles in my hands and feet as well as weakness and exhaustion all over my body.
I have not had an attack for the past two weeks and was pretty excited about that. I have learned from the specialist that I have no control over it happening. It's hard to explain but it has to do with my adrenals, thyroid, and pituitary glands not be able to produce the cortisol needed to combat any stressors, good or bad. Because the inside of my body is under constant stress from this disease, when I encounter outside stressors my glands are unable to balance my body out on its own, so my nervous system takes over and creates breathing attacks and pinched nerves in my neck causing migraines, not to mention the increase pain in my lungs due to the rapid breathing that occurred during the attack.
I am grateful for my oldest son who took over the house, making dinner, and the teens while their dad was gone today. I know this disease is not only teaching me many things but also helping my children learn to be selfless. I know my teens especially need the opportunity to practice being more selfless. This has been extremely hard on my children. When I sat down to talk to my two teens today I realized that they are struggling watching their mom be sick. It just broke my heart to know that I am causing them to worry each day. I tried to assure them that I was fine and everything will work out. I told them I am fighter and will never give up on getting better. They promised to help more and try to not argue or cause disagreements in the house. I know it is a difficult thing to ask your children to do especially when their own hormones are running rapant. I know we will grow closer as a family through this and learn to be patient with one another. I know we will conquer this as a family if we work together and never give up!
I have not had an attack for the past two weeks and was pretty excited about that. I have learned from the specialist that I have no control over it happening. It's hard to explain but it has to do with my adrenals, thyroid, and pituitary glands not be able to produce the cortisol needed to combat any stressors, good or bad. Because the inside of my body is under constant stress from this disease, when I encounter outside stressors my glands are unable to balance my body out on its own, so my nervous system takes over and creates breathing attacks and pinched nerves in my neck causing migraines, not to mention the increase pain in my lungs due to the rapid breathing that occurred during the attack.
I am grateful for my oldest son who took over the house, making dinner, and the teens while their dad was gone today. I know this disease is not only teaching me many things but also helping my children learn to be selfless. I know my teens especially need the opportunity to practice being more selfless. This has been extremely hard on my children. When I sat down to talk to my two teens today I realized that they are struggling watching their mom be sick. It just broke my heart to know that I am causing them to worry each day. I tried to assure them that I was fine and everything will work out. I told them I am fighter and will never give up on getting better. They promised to help more and try to not argue or cause disagreements in the house. I know it is a difficult thing to ask your children to do especially when their own hormones are running rapant. I know we will grow closer as a family through this and learn to be patient with one another. I know we will conquer this as a family if we work together and never give up!
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