Lay Your Burdens at the Lord's Feet

It has been so much fun being involved with the birth of baby Louie. I have loved every minute of it. I have to express my sincere and deepest gratitude to my Father in Heaven for answering my prayers and for the atonement of my Savior Jesus Christ. These past two weeks since baby Louie was born I have felt strengthened more than I could ever have imagined. I know that I was able to be there for my daughter these past two week because of prayers that were answered in my behalf.

As the birth of Louie was approaching I have to admit I was pretty worried as to whether I would be able to help my daughter with her new baby and toddler while at the same time her hubby and my youngest daughter taught swimming. Knowing the side effects and how sick I have been these past couple months made me really wonder if I would be able to be there for her like she needed me to.

After much pleading with the Lord, I have to say I truly felt so much strength and power beyond my own. I know that I was truly carried by my Savior and was allowed to do for my daughter what she needed me to. Today my daughter and her children all stayed home while her husband  and my youngest daughter taught swim lessons here. I was excited to get to some of my own housework, but realized after only 20 minutes my body could not handle what I was trying to do. I started to get very dizzy, had trouble breathing, had lung pain, and then started to black out again. 

At first I started to get so angry and frustrated as to why I couldn't do what I had been doing for my daughter these past two weeks. I was able to do more for her than I have in a long time. As I laid there on the ground trying to recover from this episode the strongest impression hit me! I realized that these past two weeks were not just a coincidence nor had I made permanent progress. 

The impression took be back to my prayers, before Louie was born, where I had plead with the Lord to give me the strength and ability to help my daughter, and to be the mother she needed me to be as she brought another sweet spirit into this world. I was once again humbled at the realization that it was not me just being a "super-mom" that enabled me to help her, but once again it was my Father in Heaven's answer to my prayers and my Savior's atonement that lifted, carried, and strengthened me in order to help my child when she needed it most! 

Soon my impatience turned to an outpouring of love and gratitude as I realized that I was lifted up and given the ability to be the mother I truly was yearning to be again. My children have done so much for me since the onset of this disease and as a mother my greatest desire is to always be able to be there for them when they needed it most. 

I am thankful for rough days like today, that serve as a reminder that the Lord does hear and answer my prayers and through His son, Jesus Christ I can have the ability to have my load lightened and burden lifted so that He can work miracles in my life, especially at at time when I needed it most!